WHAT DO WOMEN WANT?

I also laugh real hard when I hear this, "what do women really want" thing.The fun in this is how the men look tired and exhausted trying to understand women of which it's not that serious really! One thing to note is that, every woman is different and has her uniqueness just as every man is.

The same way we have our different sexual fetish; some fetish may appear weird to those who don't practice such. I mean for instance, men who love dirty stockings or ladies who love armpit hair.. Honestly, I happen to know a few and probably fallen a victim of one- Interesting yeah? So believe me when I say, wants and needs differ.

If you ask any woman including myself what we want, our typical response is "I just want to be happy" 

Who doesn't want to be happy?

I think what women want is beyond happiness. Because every woman in love with a man who loves her in return is always happy and what makes her happy is just LOVE. Hardly would you find a woman who loves and is loved being grumpy and having multiple moods. Women are the easiest to please. 

Or let me rephrase. Good women are the easiest to please. Every good woman wants whatever her man has to offer. A man who offers the world and deprives his woman ATTENTION has failed. If you love your woman you will do everything to ensure her EMOTIONAL SECURITY that is, she doesn't have a feeling of another woman in your life. When things are going good for you, you must tell her even when things aren't you must have a strong COMMUNICATION process. When your woman brings an issue that bothers her to your table, be it about your sexual life, her work life, her friends or whatever the case may be PAY ATTENTION to her. I am sure every man also knows what a woman would like to have. Study her, her friends, study her body language and pay attention to her needs.

A woman is simple.

Now I ask, what do men really want? 

Love? Sex? Multiple women?

Because a woman can give a man all he wants- love, sex, attention, emotional security, food and peace but he still finds one woman out there to behold.

So fling in your responses and lets share ideas right at the comment box below. 

UNCHANGEABLE

Trying so hard to be that ideal girl but for some reasons you remain a simple no deal.
Putting up an album of a dark past with a hope to justify your wrong acts.
Referring your flaws to your horrors.
Making up stories of a desired you, just so that little ego of yours doesn't stop being admired.
Speaking against your type with so much aggression because you hate to accept your attribution.


But that is who you are..
A girl who only laments but never repents
A girl who knows right but sticks to wrong in the name of being strong.
A girl who mentally battles with the being good or bad with a clear choice of being bad
A girl who sheds tears to cover fears!
A girl as cunny as a fox who claims to be your rock


You can be who you desire to be...
But first, be you.
Accept you.
Love you.
Enjoy you.


Nothing bad in being bad, nothing wrong in being wrong.
Nothing good in being good, nothing right in being right.
What's bad is to be in denial of any, either right or wrong.


There are stages in life. Go through them gradually.
It is one thing to be aware of the right thing to do and another to actually do it right.

Just don't fight the process...

GOD IS BEAUTIFUL

 It has indeed been a while I last visited my blog. But I am  here today again to remind you of how awesome a God like mine is.  

Let me tell you about the Power and the Presence of God.

First thing is- "His awesomeness" Go ahead and imagine how Great, Big and Wonderful having a God feels like. If the works of our hands, the amazing talents we possess, the new talents we discover every day and the miracles we encounter daily doesn't speak of my God to you? Then I must ask, who is your god?

I do not generalize my God, for my God is the Father of Our Lord Jesus Christ and that is who I boast about.

All the days that I have lived here on earth, not for once have I had to worry about who has got my back or who will stand by me till the end of time. What captivates me about this whole God thing is the fact that He has a heart so big not just to do wonderful things for me alone but for everyone. - You & I

The Power in talking to Him on your knees and complaining about everything that you don't like and things that you want but you don't have is just the most beautiful moment on this earth. I fall in love with Him more each day I wake up because it is another opportunity to feel like a Princess who gets whatever she wants by just "asking"

I am always overwhelmed when God answers to His name in certain situations I throw myself into. I adore God most especially because He never fails or sly me. When He says - "Call upon me" He means that! When He says - " By His stripes you are healed" You are really healed. But when do we want to learn to believe that His words are true, pure and without lies?

You can only see and witness the Power of God in your Obedience to faith. When He says -" Have faith in me" Just believe blindly and let Him walk you through. The painful thing is, many of us rather be blindly in love with a fellow human being and trust them guards down than be in love with God and put your absolute trust in Him. 

Even when you hurt God He doesn't neglect you when you come to say you're sorry. Even when you forget to talk to Him for weeks but on that faithful day when you decide to return to Him, He will be there. Several times in my early life, I rather wear the guilt of not praying and talking to God than to actually set aside time for Him. But I have come to realize something; it isn't about praying to Him because it is mandatory to get going in a tough world like ours, but I feel at home and at peace when I talk to Him. I become confident in everything I do. I boast of excellence in all my endeavors without doubt because I know my backup and I know of a God who arises and answers to His name.

I know I have a Big God. Who is your god?

But hear it again.

I have a good God and an Amazing Father! What a combination!

You see me smiling all the time, happy and glowing? Be reminded that I have a father in Heaven who comes down to earth when my enemies are planning a coup!

What Makes Me Special?

I am special and I know it.

So, either you or anyone swallows that, the status remains the same- That special girl.

Beautiful and smart is gold; Smart is silver and Beautiful is bronze- I have gold.

Personality as peaceful and transparent as that new mirror sitting behind my cupboard.

The presence of me as still and gentle as the blue sea with the bright sun wearing a cap over our heads.

Every of my words just right for the perfect occasion; to cheer, to comfort, to love, to hurt and to make peace.

My tongue as sharp as a blade, cruel as a polar bear, just when my emotions are bitten.

But,

Freely I give myself to that person that my heart points a finger at saying “awesome”.

Who can blame a heart hungry to love and be loved- only the devil.

In the end,

Should my heart be wrong?

If I get hurt

Or should it not have been what I was searching for?

I’d do something as simple as resume searching

Gather my horns and never forget my strings to strike the cord.

Eyes so sharp, antenna’s so active the signals come in strong.

Ready to breathe new air and create new waves.

It definitely hurts,

That it won’t be you I’d be kissing all night long

Your body nicely grinding against mine would all be memories

The fizzling I get when you whisper “do you like it” would be some other sexy guy all up in my bed

Telling me, “how do you like it” “Do you like it this way… or that way… or- “

My genuine happiness won’t be for you anymore but for him that understood what I felt for him wasn’t ordinary.

For him that cherished my smiles, complaints, openness and my moments.

For him that was proud to flaunt me to the whole world.

He is proud to have me just while you weren’t.

He understood my love needs and that’s why he had me.

It was nice to have met you.

The Cost of Unfaithfulness

I have been through a thousand years, a thousand times and ten thousand heart breaks in my lifetime.

From the very moment, my best friend and I graduated from high school and had to split for understandable reasons to the moment my friends did better than me at homework because I wasn’t all that geeky, down to the very moment I met him, all I ever wanted was honesty.

Things do happen and I understand.

Bella and I had to split because I couldn’t afford the school her parents wanted for her. I scored 2/10 all the time just because I rather write love poems than stay up doing homework. He didn’t want me anymore without a reason but an action.

He said- “it’s over”

Bella broke my heart when it was certain we couldn’t continue for 4 years after 6 years together. My playmates at school got me jealous with their excellent scores and every hand giving thumbs up.

For if he had grown to love someone else, or he had feelings for another girl, or maybe he saw something better for him, I could have understood. If I wasn’t what he wanted anymore, if I wasn’t just enough for him he should have told me. My option was to let him go and be happy and I’d be. I would have tried so hard to win him and if I failed I would help him pack his bags to be where his heart belongs because then I wouldn’t deserve a man who doesn’t want me.

My options were snatched the day death came knocking at his door.

Very silently at night, it barged on him.

I can imagine his fear… I can hear him screaming so loud I wish I was by his side that night. I wish we didn’t argue, I wish we didn’t go to bed angry, I wish I hadn’t said it was over between us.

Because I only felt saying those words will hurt him and cause him to say He loves me and won’t leave me. But my words had the devil escort him home. To tempt him in the middle of the night just before morning when I would get a chance to say “I didn’t mean any of what I Said last night”

The devil told him, I had grown to love someone else and that I saw someone better for me. The devil also mentioned that he wasn’t enough for me and would never be and so he decided to go and be where there is peace and love - HEAVEN.

All I ever wanted was honesty? Damn me!

He needed my honesty and I fed him his doubt.

Ever since then, my eyes always told stories that my mouth could never narrate.

I since then, lived in fear, coldness and loneliness. Ran away from home when his parents came looking for me after they found the note he left saying-

“Sonia Riman, I loved you and I never stopped”

                                                                                THE END

WHO I AM TODAY IS BECAUSE I STRUGGLED TO BE ME.

One thing you should never forget about today's write-up is the fact that "Regardless of any human being, you are You"

Everyday, we hear just about how much of a necessity it is to love yourself because it isn't just about who will love you. Trust me, some guys love "anything" but the point is, who will love you just enough? No one ever truly loves you like the way God will.

No one is going to argue that with me I hope because then I would have to call down my God for such individual. Lol

Okay Guys, so today ' talk is about the  Crazy Debby and her hilarious Job Interview. She's here again  I can't assure you it is the last time but...


I LOVE ME,
Simply fascinated by what I have become,
Many times I look stupid to anyone I tell my pain because of how much smile I wear everyday. But that's the fun about being a Debby.

I love me for my scars and my pain.
I love me for being that Softie, for being weak and strong at the same time.
I love me for times I cry and sob silently, chewing my aches and baring my lonely nights.

I love me for loving and caring for the wrong people that I hoped were mine forever.

I love me for my heart breaks, the disappointments and the setbacks.

I love me for the blades that marked my skin and the blood that gently poured out.

For picking up the broken pieces of my heart and making a sweet melody out of it was the most beautiful thing I ever did.

That I was cold, hard and numb at some point for reasons that were overwhelming caused me to be scared to heal, be whole and love again.

But despite everything,

I love me for desiring true love and for believing in it.

I love me for rising above rape and abuse, a story for another day...
I love me for the times memories terrified me, the times I wasn't tough enough to stand on my own.

I love me for the times that I needed to lean on someone, the times that I needed a warm hug and a pat on my back but got none but yet my life did go on.

I love me for my slow songs and deep lyrics.

I, at some point became that emotional "thing", who all she ever wanted was a short-brief kiss on her forehead but got only another reason to grief.

Regardless, I love me for my sensational poems.

I love me for my big heart and the part of me that people took for granted.

I love me for yet easily falling deeply and caring while bracing my hurt.

Oooooooh Yeah!
One thing I'm crazy about? My  Body!
I love me for my body, and for the sides of me I wasn't much comfortable with.

I love me for my changes, my pretty eyes and soft lips.

I love me for my cute big forehead and my not so beautiful feet. lol Cheers to my forehead and that little feet!

I love for me for me why?
Because all of this including my mistakes made me sour cream, amazing, special and a little bit more human than the rest to the world.

For I am a beautiful soul, showcased in an amazing body and guarded by a wonderful spirit.

I AM ME AND NO ONE ELSE.

WRITTEN BY: Deborah Erakpor
EDITRD BY: Jessy Deremi

THE REVELATION OF CONTENTMENT

Hey, Guys!

How has the week been? Work, School, Friends, Family, Lovers, and Haters? Honestly, my prayer is that they are all okay.

Early this morning while I was taking a bath, I noticed something unique for the very first time in my life. I have been bathing there for days, weeks and even months not to have realized. It felt so much like I had been blinded for too long.

Usually, when I'm taking a bath, I use this plastic bowl I got from "the place" to pour water from my smallish bucket to my body. And this very morning I just put the bowl into the bucket to get water to pour on my body only to realize that the bowl felt a lot larger and heavier!

Then I decided to pay attention to the bowl and discovered it wasn't the usual the place bowl that was in my bathroom. And then I managed to cope with the different feel.

And I was pouring and pouring and suddenly, the water in the bucket had finished! I tried thinking back to recall if I had forgotten to fill up the bucket before taking a bath. I couldn't remember the water pouring onto the floor or the waste of a drop. And then the revelation Struck me!

 Whatever we have and whatever we own is just enough for us. My water, my bucket and my the place bowl was just perfect to take a bath every morning. But then I came across a bigger and heavier bowl and decided to try it regardless and I couldn't handle it. I wasted all my water.

Do you see the truth in this?
Sometimes in life, we think we aren't comfortable and we want to live large, live like Kings and be on top of the world. But can we really handle it?
Of course, If I had taken precautions of the bowl's wide mouth and it's ability to take more water, I would simply have reduced the quantity of water at a time. But I was nonchalant because after all, it's a bowl as well.

Where we are today, we may be struggling and we know it. But we are more eager to experience a turn around than we are prepared to handle the change.

Every advancement in life comes with a greater task. Just as the bowl felt bigger and heavier, in life a step forward would be bigger but a lot heavier. We can't keep pushing to lead without preparing for leadership, we can't keep fighting for more without preparing a space to accommodate the increase.

I learned a big lesson this morning and I just thought it would be nice to share with you.
Have a wonderful day.

FACTS ABOUT LAGOS

Lagos and it's many characters. Trust me, it is a City with hilarious personalities. Everybody in Lagos contributes to defining Lagos. 

Here are some Lagos facts...

1.  On a Monday morning, every soul in a car that appears on the road is rushing somewhere but when a fellow madman "jams" his car, he comes down to start a fight. What happened to where he was rushing to?
2. In Lagos, beggars don't beg when it is raining. Why?
3. Hawkers sell their goods come rain come the sun, they fight to survive.
4. In Lagos, VI, Lekki, Ikoyi, beggars don't beg when cars are hurrying to work they show up at evening and night time. Why?
5. In Lagos, when a fellow rider drives like an idiot, why do we always look into their cars like we want to beat them up and we eventually don't?
6. Why do Lagosians feel blasting gbedu in their cars make them the IN thing?
7. If you don't have an iPhone as a Lagos girl you are not a sharp girl. Why?
8. If you don't have a gold chain as a Yahoo boy, you haven't made it. Why?

What is missing? Let's add it up. Let's have fun!

EVEN ROCKS CRACK- Deborah Erakpor

Hey guys! I told you about Debby and her little experience? So she is just about to share it with you. Lol, Pay rapid attention guys.

Yes! Even rocks are capable of having cracks!

Looking at my life, I can say this phrase was born out of an experience which I had recently. So, sometime this week, I had an interview and I was to meet the CEO of the firm because I had passed the first two stages of the interview. On meeting her, we sat down and the session began.

She asked a couple of memorable questions and in the midst of all those questions gave rise to very insensitive remarks as well as insults. It was like from 0 to 100 in a jiffy!  Ouch! as I sat there in awe and absolutely bewildered by what had just happened.

Did I forget to mention? She had the nastiest attitude and aura I’d ever seen in my entire life. But despite how tough I am naturally, I left back to my office demoralized, so down in my spirit and I didn’t think I’d have been able to recover for at least another 24 hours. It sank in pretty deep but as a strong believer of resisting negative vibes I picked myself up very quickly.

Now, I want you to understand that even rocks are capable of having cracks. This very experience made me realize that no matter how tough you are, there are possibilities’ of getting hurt by people and that is okay. Because many of them are people who know nothing about your journey or what you have been through, even the ones that do know a bit would do same and it would sting like a bee.

It is not what you deserve but the reality of life.

 No one is above getting hurt or being put down. Nevertheless, being hurt doesn’t mean staying hurt. The fact that there are cracks on a rock doesn’t stop the rock from being a rock. It still maintains its position and stands firm in the ground. True strength does not come from avoiding the hurts, the bad words, the nasty attitude, the rude boss, the cheating boyfriend or the fake friend as the case may be. True strength comes from how you are able to rise above all these and still be you-  Beautiful, Bold and Confident.

What was meant to hurt me, couldn’t hurt me it helped me and what was meant to kill me couldn’t kill me, it cured me.

What was meant to break me couldn’t break me, it built me and what was meant to imprison me couldn’t imprison me, it prepared me.

I won’t stay down and be hurt; I won’t let the negative vibes in because I won’t give another person the key to the drivers’ right to my emotions. If you give them the power to control you they certainly will.

And no one but you alone should have such power to manipulate your emotions.

So let them do their “best” (worst), let them say what they want, you just build a wall and when you get a crack and water comes in? boldy sh shake it off and stand firm, keep your head up, bask in positive vibes and keep it moving because even rocks are capable of having cracks but it doesn’t change it from being a rock and standing firm.

YOU’RE A ROCK!  

Sometimes, we just have to let go off something's that are designed to hurt us and burn our ego. Because when we don't let go? We stay in that moment for years without realizing it. One advice is, Believe in who you are and not anyone's opinion. When you are asked "tell me about yourself" what would you say? Well, I'd say, I am an amazing sexy ass girl! A lover to the core!

What would you say?

Written By: Deborah Erakpor
Edited By: Jessy Deremi

A DIVE INTO THE PERSPECTIVE OF LIFE- Chinonso Akobundu

TO MY FELLOW GRADUATES...

Listen here, graduates. Plenty of people will tell you to enjoy this time and not worry about what’s to come. And that’s just plain bad advice.

This season of life ahead of you is important. Don’t waste it. At the same time, don’t drive yourself crazy with the fear of missing out or the stress of making the wrong choice. This season is all a delicate balancing act.
You never really leave the classroom. There’s always a new lesson life has to teach you, if you’re willing to listen. So don’t worry too much about what to do. Worry, instead, about who you are becoming.

“Don’t worry Whether or not you’re continuing your education, never stop learning. Become a student of the world around you. Travel to new places. Meet interesting people. Read as many books as possible. Pray and meditate, reflecting on who you are and are becoming. These practices offer your soul the quiet it needs in a world where such practices are becoming obsolete.

*Don’t worry about what to do. Worry about who you are becoming. Focus on continued growth and learning, and what you’re meant to do will become clear over time.
*Stop looking for the perfect job and start creating it. The best way to do what you love is to build the perfect job for yourself. Start a small business, if even as a hobby, so you’re never completely on someone else to earn a living.
*Instead of chasing your dream, serve someone else’s dream first. This will save you years of pain and accelerate your growth in ways you can’t imagine. And it will humble you.

So that’s my advice. Do with it (time) what you will, but please do something.
I pray it helps you and I...

Akobundu Immaculata Chinonso

Productivity Plus Afternoon Tea- July 1 2017

A lot of time when I look back, I sincerely wish I had so many flying opportunities as there are now. I am more than sure I would have been your President by now. But I want to encourage everyone both Young & Old, Its never too late to chase after an opportunity. As long as you're alive you need to keep advancing.  Join us on the 1st of July lets help you up that ladder! 

See you there guys!

I HATE ME BECAUSE OF MY BOSS

Hi guys!

It's been an amazing week with lots of drama, I am sure Debby has a story to tell Lol. Well, I am sure we all come across several depressing, tormenting and frustrating situations in our day to day life but all we need is to be calm and take control over our emotions. We need to guard our emotions like our gold and silver because it truly is.

The Greatest Power anyone can have over us is the Power of our Emotions. Never let anyone toy with your emotions (feelings)

Speaking of myself? I don't hate me because of my boss but I am pretty sure some cases may differ. It will differ because you aren't  me neither am I to you. It is quite clear that Human Beings are different and we all have different levels of Patience, Absorbance, and Resilence.

It may happen sometimes that we have some misunderstanding with our bosses because of work done and not done, information passed but not received, or many at times their principles of doing things.



But I have a question...
Why would anyone want to influence somebody else's Principle? Somebody else's way of doing things just because we don't like it? We should get one thing right which is, "it is their style"
We can hardly do anything about what someone has decided to be like. But should we then become unhappy because of what they are like?

No!

Let People be free to be what they want as long as they are comfortable in their own skin

That is my belief.
 Not for anything should you hate yourself because who then will Love you? Your Boss loves his life, she also loves her life just get it.

They may Boss you, Toss you but they won't kill you. Form that thick skin to every bullshit and every demoralizing statement because you wouldn't have been hired if they didn't see that awesome potential in you.

Rise up above Words.
But if Words turn to Actions, take your leave.


So from today on?






See you soon guys!

AND SO WE PART WAYS...

I was told it was dangerous to love but above all more dangerous to be in love.

I fell like a baby born to fall and without regrets I soiled in it.

I had never felt a better joy or a happier moment. It was like a moment of fulfillment.

I was warned against things that looked too real to be true that they just might be mere wishes, but I wasn’t listening and so I fell deeply into his coven.

I tried to pull myself out or even find a rescue hand but the more I tried the more I died inside of me.

Ejecting what I thought completed me was my worst nightmare.

How couldn’t he want me anymore? Wasn’t I enough or was I not just good enough. He used to call me his Everything until I became nothing of value to him.

But where did I miss it? And where did I go wrong? He was the symbol of love in my heart.

I thought if loving less was a risk to losing him, then loving more would have been a way to keep him forever.

But I said- If you ever stop loving me just tell me and let me go. I lost control of everything the day reality was born.

What is reality? Does it really exist?

I have asked myself so many times what exists and what doesn’t exist. And I realized that I exist. My thoughts are real, my feelings are true and my life is a miracle. In my existence, I found the truth behind reality.

Reality like my mind tells me is not what I think but what is true. And what is true is not about how I feel but how things turn out to be. I am not reality, just as reality is not me. And just as I exist, reality does exist too.

Along the way I understood that I can’t make my reality but I can make my wishes. Reality is what effort, time and consistency can dare to forge but reality is the result of things done yesterday, today, tomorrow or the day after.

I may have wished us a forever but reality says; today, we part ways and so our story ends here…

What I Believe

HOW ABOUT I GIVE YOU CAKE AND COFFEE?

PRODUCTIVITY PLUS CAKE & COFFEE MORNING

The Productivity Plus Cake & Coffee morning, is an interactive session for networking, building relationships and delving into the keys to a Productive Plus Life. It’s for leaders to improve and build those relationships and connections crucial to their professional and personal life while also sharing ideas on productivity.

Sometimes changing your environment and discussing with people with different perspectives gives your creativity a boost and allows you to come up with solutions that eluded you back at the office. Also creating a productive workplace is integral for a corporation to increase their profits and to thrive in today’s economy. The cake & coffee morning provides such an environment.

At the 3^rd of June session, we will introduce the Productivity Plus Group Coaching programme which has contributed a lot to the Life and Performance of the Coachee who participated in the ongoing programme. We will discuss the program outcomes and the frequency of our interactions. You will also get a deep dive into our new and ever transformative Productivity Plus Planner, a great accountability tool for high performance.

Of course, we must not leave out our tasty and inviting “Kiniyidun” cakes. We look forward to seeing you!! 

Date:   3^rd June 2017

Time:  10am (prompt) to 12noon

The Productive Plus Planner: 3,500

Venue: The Development Centre, Plot 28 Blk 113, Oladimeji Alo Street Opposite VFS Global,

Lekki Phase 1.

To book your place, please contact us on 08169116806, 08024618033, and 07030000292 and/or by email at abi@abilonge.com or productivityplus@abilonge.com.

For more information about Productivity Plus, please visit www.abilonge.com

YOU MADE ME TASTE THE DISTANCE

When you told me you had to go, I asked myself " does this always have to happen to me?"

Do I at some point have to feel this ache of letting go or what really is my issue? You don't let me do enough for you and it makes me feel like you don't really want much from me. 

Maybe no one ever expects much from me but I had hoped you'd be different.

No one sees their importance through my eyes but how about my actions are they blind too?

But for how much I am ready to sacrifice anything for you, do you not see it?

A day without you is like a day without the sun.
It's like a torment to my life.
It is a soak of sorrow to my heart.

You'd be gone a week and when you return I hope you wont go again.
This one time, I'd manage.
This one time, I'd endure.

It doesn't look like I can because humanly I can't.
But I'd cope.

SO, I'D WAIT...

You can't control both the good and bad things that happens in life but you van control how you take it. Being away from someone who you care so much about is quite painful but sometimes there is little we can do about it. But one lesson I have learned from this is, if you cant do without somebody for a few days, you should try to keep them forever. "Protect them so much that even sickness won't snatch them away from you" 

Who have you missed so much? Share with us your story :)

THE THING ABOUT LOVE

Hey guys!

I know I should be punished for such long vacation I granted myself that kept me away from writing to you and I apologize.

My job hunt wasn’t a joke at all because I had searched till I almost gave up at least not my ghost.

So here I am again with my talk about love!!!

And so, there is a story about some guy that I fell in love with. Yes, still very much in love with.

I was afraid to scare him away with all my needs. I am referring to every girls’ regular needs you know; emotional needs, material needs (yes! I need to keep looking sexy) insecurity needs and many more. From my past relationships, I had carried so much burden and I wondered how he was going to cope. I was afraid that before I get to heal he would’ve taken the back door. Unknowingly he had sworn to himself to make things work.

I didn’t think I deserved it, but I knew it’d be worth it.

One thing I want you to always remember is that, “when someone loves you, they’d do anything.”

And something I’ve realized in this journey with him is that “love makes you capable of handling anything.”

He was ready to handle everything, he was going to work day and night if that was what it took to make me happy.

He was ready and I was ready and that’s just about what it takes. If erasing all my needs would keep us in love I was ready to do that.

My word to you today is that; If you ever truly love somebody just go ahead and be with them because every other thing will fall in place.

It definitely will.

Money isn’t love. Love will cause you to work hard and earn money.

LET PEOPLE MAKE MISTAKES

I am ashamed of you.

Your quietness on me had my hopes high that you knew indeed that I was in control of this but until the day you let loose your lips you blew off my confidence in what you understand about me.

Maturity isn't by age, for a good age is only but two figures. Many wise men didn't make three figures, so no matter how much knowledge you've got, it doesn't just depend on your age but your experiences... 

It's saddening but not so surprising that you know not an inch about me. It's only because I have refused to let you know me. 

Still, I'm not convinced to let you know. 

But I'd like you to know that I'm not in danger and not endangered. Silly opportunity you had to witness my mess doesn't give you right to sail my boat. 

I paddled it all along and I still can.

Don't forget.

Days when I had to lie to cover you up to catch your fun, I did.

I never for once thought I had to cry out for help on your becoming.

Well in defense, you could choose to say you never had it this worse. But to who does man tell everything to but God?

I let you do your things and make your mistakes which has earned you your wisdom. 

I beg you.

Let me be.

Sometimes, people should be allowed to makes their own mistakes and ruin their lives if they so want to. It wont be your wrong to let them be. Everyone deserves a right to own their lives.

ENVIED.

I AM NOT YOUR STRESS

It is quite amazing that I am worth your thoughts and worries...

I am just this girl with a simple goal to be happy in life, what more can I ask for?

My life hasn't  exactly been rosy as you overthink it; I thought I should say.

It will be pathetic to want my "tight shoes" when I pray daily for a new one.

I honestly live a life of content in myself and not what I posses.

Because my mum taught me the power of contentment that which will never erase from my heart.

It is so frustrating to feel less of yourself, so why torture yourself?

What harm has being "you" caused you?

Even when I have nothing; you still consider me as everything but nevertheless, I'm glad.

The interesting thing about your hate towards me is that now I am certain I have a bright star above my head that I cant see. I'm happy you're the tool for my own vision but please don't get stuck as a tool.

I am sure I am another persons tool, with my undeniable love and appreciation to how they look, they speak, they walk, they eat, they pray. Just everything.

But I am not the Devil to plot such a beautiful life for a downfall.

I am not his incarnate.

I am a disciple of; Love and not hate
                              Progress and not setback
                              Happiness and not sadness

I am here to see everyone rise above their limits.

So please darling don't wish me bad. I want you to be happy too.

I'm sure there is a uniqueness inside of you.

Find it.

I will give anything up for you.

LOVE: A new birth

I can no longer explain who I am.

I have lost me to another and now I believe in change.

I had found peace when I found love in you.

Peace and love where my pursuits but then I realized there was more to want.

More to need.

Something more than love that I craved.

I wanted a family, a home to call my own; I craved the extension of my love.

If you could give me, you would have.

If you could turn back the hands of time you wouldn’t hesitate.

If you could keep me forever, you’d be the happiest man.

Then I think one more time; should I stick on?

Maybe this is my own destiny?

Maybe I was born cheated?

Could my life possibly have  been created to this norm or am I just my problem?

Was I designed to share and be enveloped in jealousy?

What is my wrong to want the one that I love and make him my own.

I just want to be here for him

I want to be his everything; I want to be his heart desire.

I want to make love to him with every part of my body that can feel.

I want to be inside of him.

There, I will watch time stop.

My fantasies are just mine and not his.

From day one, he knew the last chapter.

He knew he would say those words… “you need to move on”

He knew everything and I knew nothing but one wish…

Regardless, he dished out those words in his actions as he watched me fall on my knees day and night seeking a first chance.

He said “give me time” and as I watched time while, I had grown to love another.

To Be Continued..