Its ALL About US...: AND THIS IS MY STORY…

Its ALL About US...: AND THIS IS MY STORY…:   Mum! I can’t take this anymore; you can’t continue to control my life, after all you are living yours.   I want to be free to make d...

AND THIS IS MY STORY…

 

Mum! I can’t take this anymore; you can’t continue to control my life, after all you are living yours.  I want to be free to make decisions for myself. Mum broke down in tears “Sonia I just want the best for you”, “I am making the best in my own way mum” I replied, just give me a chance. Mum hugged me and said “I want you to be happy” and I would be mum, I replied.

Many years after I realized I should have let mum teach me what to do I was wrong, fun is not life. I thought I had the best friends in the world but I was just hoping I guess. I am Sonia Andrew,29years old, a pregnant non academic staff. I work at Federal Girls College and I am married to Victor Andrew. Yes Victor is a cab driver, as rickety and wobbly his legs are it was every body’s reason to laugh, but how could I even think of mocking? A man that rescued me from all the neglects and rejections, he put a smile on my face again even when I thought there was no one for me he chose me. *sobbing* He is my joy!

Victor’s funny walking steps brings out the sparks of cheerfulness in my eyes, in the next life victor would be my end and beginning.

Back in school I was not so popular but I wanted to be, so I walked in the steps of “the big girls”. I started smoking, drinking and using hard drugs because I wanted to be noticed. I formed my own clique “No business” and yes! Finally I was noticed, so much happiness I thought! I had started aborting, taking pills and I was getting sicker by the day. My friends kept hailing me and I was encouraged, but when I was expelled from school because I was pregnant for the 15^th time, they all left me “FRIENDS”. I was lonely nowhere to go mum had died 2 years ago because she had cancer and there was never a dad! No relative, no friends, no body to care.

Then I met Victor… he was at the car park as busy as the road was, he rushed me to the hospital at the time of my delivery, but sadly I had a miscarriage. I wanted to go back to school after everything but there was no money, Victor was interested in me, I noticed. But he wasn’t my type, he advised me, fed me, gave me a roof over my head, gave me attention, he knew my story and he said "Sonia I want to give you a happy end" and indeed he gave me laughter! He was an amazing guy, I was in love I couldn’t believe it!

Well here I am married to Victor carrying his baby, and we happy together. After this baby is born am going back to school! I am Sonia Andrew and this is my story…

OBEY...

Many of us don't know how much it pays us to be obedient, to listen and to wait!
Our parents might be pushing it all hard on us to make sure we come out as good people. But think about it if they don't know what is right they wouldn't say. They have been through all this before and they know what it feels like, and because of the so much love they have for us they strive to guide us, and make us better people than they are!
Obedience is not easy because we all want to explore and enjoy, but not all explorations and enjoyments are true! they are not real, they are not bridges they are traffics, they are hurdles.
That is why many people (youths) have high hurdles because they choose to "explore and enjoy" and the others have mere hurdles of life and get to cross over it in time.
See when you obey: 1. you avoid trouble
                                  2. you put a smile on your mums face and even dad
                                  3. Better things to do with your time
                                  4. You become disciplined
                                  5. Joy from within
Just Obey!

When you CRy

when we cry, we let go!
what exactly are we letting go?
we letting go off pains... when we cry we grow stronger, we become smarter
we become ready for any challenge. Because we have reasoned.
When a tear drops the heart is in pains, the heart needs comfort, the heart needs love. it has just been hurt..
Who bruised your heart doesn't mean, who hurt your heart doesn't mean, we cry so that whoever we love that might have hurt us, we wont loose them because we are hurt, but we would forgive them because we love them. And let go off our pains and hold on to those than can help us take them away even if they might have hurt us.
We cry when we love, we cry because we want a change, we cry because we don't like what we're going through. we cry sometimes because it was actually painful...
Life might not offer us the best, let's offer ourselves the good out of life, how?
Let us cry out our pains and carry on...

HOW WAS I TO KNOW?

“Wake up children”! Mum said repeatedly, it is time to prepare for school.

Sam and I hate school so much, but mummy says “school makes us better people” and I don’t believe that. I hate school; I have no friends because they keep hammering on the fact that I have no dad. They tag me as “the fatherless girl”. It is disheartening knowing that people don’t take my emotions seriously; instead they whale at me, and make me remember how much my mum hurts when Sam and I are away from her.

“I don’t want to be in school”! I told mum. “School doesn’t make everyone better” I said. Am tired of school mum I want to be with you, mum hugged me and whispered “Lorry you make me…” I did not understand why she said that, it just couldn’t be because I said I wanted to be with her. As I raised my head hoping to understand what she meant by her statement, mum was in tears… I couldn’t figure why she was in tears, I have always known my mum to be “the tough weed”.

When Sam entered the truck, ready for school, I thought! Sam was unusually quiet and I was confused! “What exactly is going on here”? I said, and then Sam said he was hungry. I was hungry too but I couldn’t say, because there was obviously nothing to eat. There was no food, no money, no friends, nobody. We just had ourselves and our neighbors, a home without a father, a home with so much sorrow, a crying home. I held up my tears, which was like being at the top of a mountain surrounded with dark waters. When I got to class all I wondered was why did dad have to go? Why did I fall into such a hopeless family? For a second I thought, am I not being heartless by words? Then I began to reason out ways I could help my family, and yes! I was going to do all I had to do to make money regardless of what the outcome was going to be. After school I did not wait for mum to come pick Sam and I, instead I took the risk to go home. On getting home it felt like no one was home so I assumed she went to pick us up, when I got to my room there was a letter on my bed…

A letter from mum saying “ My lovely child, I have done all I can to keep you till this very age although I hid so many secrets from you but now I would tell you all”. I paused because I was scared to know what she had to say, besides where is mum? I was worried there was an usual meal set for Sam and I, I was happy about that but still I was surprised.

I continued the letter “daughter I have Kidney disease, ever since before your dad died. I have been in pains each day, hoping I would be better but I was wrong and am sorry”. It was like I was struck with sudden pain in my head, I felt my eyes full, my hands wet, I was tensed! I shouted “mum”!! I ran off to her room, mum was right there on her bed starring at me. I was scared… I got closer placed my hands on her but she did not move, I looked closely, Mum is dead! Was I to know mum was going through all this pains? She never told me what was wrong each time she cried. When Sam walked into the room in tears holding a white paper, in that paper was a test result showing mum’s critical illness. Why didn’t mum tell me?

Mum left us hopeless… but how was I to know what the problem was when she didn’t tell me?

 

 

 

 

PUSH

It's coming
It's coming, It's coming
Almost there! Oh God, Hurry!
Oh Christ come on, please Oh God.
Oh God! Ouch!!
sudden *silence*....
It's a baby girl!!
  

Seriously?

No!!! Oh my God, somebody help me...
This is too much to bear, *filled with tears*
I can't take this
Why is this happening to me?
I didn't plan for this.
What am I to do?
I can not afford to ruin my life, oh no!
Ouch! it happened...now I can't get my job
I just fatted during my interview!

YOU ARE GRATEFUL YOU JUST HAVE TO KNOW IT

Some people ask questions that are funny to me. they ask can we really know God? what a question! Of course we can know God, he has already made himself known to us and available for us, all we have to do is say "God I need you in my life please come in".
It is ridiculous that some deny the existence of God. Karl Marx openly denied the existence of God, believing that the person but not God in the highest form of being.

Such foolishness!
Who can explain the reason why you breathe? some would say it is science. yes science only made breathing look like chemicals plus physical operations. but breathe was given and not made. it was given to you and I that's why we alive! we came to being by the breathe a Sovereign God gave.

Scientists are God's instrument to make duplicate of what he has done here on earth, but instead they think they are so creative and they know all. All what they put together comes from something am very much sure they cant define where water was originated from not made from. They would only tell you the cells make up this and that but who brought about the cells?

Lets not be Ignorant lets be wise and reasonable! God made us and that is why we are here, he loves us and he is our first love because out of love He made us like Himself. we can't let the world He brought us into so as to enjoy ourselves ruin our relationship with Him. Instead let us show Him we are grateful, think about it you are actually grateful after knowing He is the reason why you are alive and not mere science

RAiN...

While sitting alone. thinking in a lonely place...

Suddenly you hear a loud noise and you look through your window, when you turn back to your position and sleep still refuses to come through, then you imagine!
Right there in your imaginations, you remember old moments, past occurrence's, then you think of things you actually desire could happen. Then you realize that you are either smiling, filled with remorse or tears, you also realize you were closing your eyes at one point. And at that particular time those were your deepest imaginations your wishes.
And during all your imaginations it starts raining, you seek sleep and sleep will be willing to come through because you have just let your feelings flow...

What do we call trust? some don't even know when they trust another, some feel trusting someone is telling them your secrets. but no that is not what trust is all about.
Trust is vouching for another! Trust is believing in someone..
Yes when you trust someone and you are disappointed over time you tend to loose your trust.

It was all you... or faithful you

I was deceived! I was humiliated! I was heart broken but at least I tried...
Every one says its fun to be in love, yes it is but mine wasn't.
it was probably because I pushed too much, all I wanted was to experience that feeling everyone has in a relationship.
I thought being in a relationship was the sweetest but its the saddest! to me...
I would buy no more love stories because only you can make yours. Besides you cant make your love story through another persons, it would only leave you sad.
I wonder if I was thinking...as it is I doubt if I was! I took the heroic step and went into an obvious meaningless relationship knowing well I would come out sad... **HEART BROKEN**

Now see this are the mistakes people make. They know, they saw, but they ignored.
They wonder why they turn out sad, but yes! most are the reasons but a few are just treated unfairly but its natural! some are faithful and get rude treatment some are not and get fair treatment but that is life... unfaithful never gets away with it but the faithful has a place to stay, there is always a reserved heart for the faithful

What we are

Most people strive and try to make it
but some others drive and dive endlessly
we crave to make it and some end in the grave while trying
we want to be smarter so we can be greater
but in all we are stronger than the others

Never look for who to blame instead locate the flame

Don't expect surprises keep an hope rising

You never can tell those who truly love you or hate you
you can only tell of how you feel

Great people do not ignore mistakes they account for it

Fame is shame when even in your fame you know you are lame!

intelligent sayings originate from unforgettable past

SOMETimeS

Sometimes one has to feel lonely
Sometimes one has to feel sad
Sometimes one has to makes decisions
Sometimes one has to make mistakes
Sometimes one has to take a mysterious step
Sometimes one has to take advices
Sometimes one deserves to be happy
Sometimes one deserves to be alone
Sometimes one has to view the bad sides of the good
Sometimes one has to look beyond the normal
Sometimes there just has to be a sometime

...

Don't be scared to try, try not to be scared

what death is..

Death:
It comes whether or not you expecting it
What a rude and uninvited guest
We all wish we could pay back
but sadly we got to run from it
It is that noun with a great verb, that gives your sentence a tragic end.

Death respects no one, it pleases it self
it takes joy away, it brings us tears
It shows no mercy...

Death ruins a home, it breaks bond
It destroys peace
It brings loneliness
Tears is all we produce out of death.

Death makes us wise
it makes us smarter because we learn
It sometimes unites us

But most importantly we loose something when death takes place

When there is hope we cope

We go through a lot of things in life and most of us sometimes blame ourselves and some don't know who to blame.
There are times when we feel down and disappointed that we tend to loose hope and we feel weary but some we call them the strong one's because they keep fighting.
The hardest times in our lives are times when we loose hope or when we fail to cope, we see the world as coming to an end
But no!
When we endure we share our bitter thoughts but when we can't endure we bear our bitter thoughts alone.
Sharing your pains means gathering hope to cope but bearing your pains alone means giving up soon
We are stronger not because we are younger but because we are loved
But having hope is one important thing in life we should place before us because there is a future for us we probably can't just see it but believe it its ahead of us. no situation is hopeless you only just assuming its hopeless when its almost over.
Why not endure by seeking the right way
There is a solution you just have to locate it, there is always hope for those who try to cope