I LIVED TO TELL MY STORY

i feel alive, i feel free.

From the very moment when I let you in; I let you win and I made you sin.

Irredeemably drunk, I couldn't think…

…Too weak to blink so I gave in because of my clique.

I let you kiss me and take my breath away.

Slightly opening my eyes to admire you once again; you were already gone.

Just far too gone!

It pains me that you couldn't spare me one last moment.

One moment that I could cherish.

Truth is,

It was really never your fault; I was your one night stand.

But why I was, I couldn't understand.    

I couldn't explain further how much I wanted you just so my nights don’t get longer.

So what I did was build blocks of faith around your special spot in my heart that I’d get over you.

Well… I did live to tell my story.

Didn't i?

The further you endure a pain that seems so unbearable is the longer it takes for you to heal. The longer it takes for you to get over it.

THE DOGS’ LOYALTY

My bestfriend

We are both humans so,

When we quarrel in the end we forgive each other.

We roll on the floor and shake it off forgetting our differences.

We realize that we have loved ourselves ten times more few hours ago.

Whether or not we admit it, we know it.

His compliments he can’t hide.

He wiggles his tail in approval of my appearance.

He would ask “when would you be back”

….just with a simple bark.

There I would be, deciding whether or not to take him along.

I’ve grown so used to him…

Should he be sick or sad? I could cry all day

We would cuddle and watch telemundo

He would sleep off in my arms

Because he knows “I’d be there”

Many times he would cry over being single and heartbroken.

He would watch me cry too and say to me “my case is better than yours”

The mysterious smile I get fades my pain of loneliness

My dog is everything.

The “humans” are nothing.

We quarrel and never forgive each other.

We roll on the floor till one is crowned the best fighter.

Then…

We realize how much we hate each other,

Whether or not we say it, we know it.

Should you be sick or sad? Was the deal day they had been waiting for.

They would gather behind you to mock you

Many times you would be hurt but that’s their joy.

Dogs are loyal, they would love you till your death

The law of change does not affect a dogs’ love.

Let the “humans” go to the dogs and learn how to love and care for another.

I WAS THE PROBLEM

Just like a tear in the rain I seem not to exist

Just like a drop in the ocean I seem not to matter

As I slipped away hoping but  knowing i'd never be caught

They all feel the same, like rushing blood in my veins

And now that you have gone, I hope the world tastes your flavor


I never scale this familiar crossroad whenever I'm with you

I've tried to wonder what kept us away because it kept us away for so long

Even as hard as I tried to pull us together in my little way


Maybe I didn't pull hard enough?

And now, all I do is dream; A dream created from all the figments of thoughts i have about you


And I'm tortured and I ask myself "how does it feel?"

Knowing that i have lost you to the warm hands of another.

Seeing you happy in grace; the same I'm still on a journey for

It makes me sad every time

Every single time


And now I'm ashamed

Trying so hard to forgive myself as I crush memories about you knowing you mean a lot to me


BY: A.K.A  DJANGO
EDITED BY: JESSY DEREMI

DEAR BOYFRIEND

Ever since “my” mother passed away…

You kept my thoughts company

Not because you satisfy my thoughts

But because you enjoyed the time I would have spent knowing her

I was all about making you happy and you being proud of me

It didn’t matter if my mum had to cry

All I wanted were your smiles

Yet, I couldn’t be enough for you even as hard as I tried

But I was more than enough for her, I never had to try

Now that my heart demands the only thing it’s used to; you’re gone…

I offered you my life

You took my life without arguments

You broke it without comments

I surrendered all to you

And she surrendered everything to me

Oh how what goes around comes around

I shouldn’t bother you with my cries, nor worry you with my crimes

Oh mother!

I take all blames

Forgive me…

Love your mother, don’t wish you had

This is not my story because I LOVE my mother!

And this wouldn’t be yours if you show your mother the love that she deserves.

Mothers’ day is coming; it’s early enough to plan something special

Cheers!

BEING BLACK... BECAUSE I'M BLACK

Being black, I'm a looter

when I'm trying to survive

Being Black, I'm a murderer

while the white boy is psychologically disturbed

Being Black, I'm not beautiful

Rather I am an associate of violence

Being Black, I am never obedient to the police

I always refuse to comply

Being Black, I am the scape goat for the police to torture

Even when I have committed no crime

Being Black, I am never right

My opinions don't matter

Being Black, I should swallow any unfair treatments

Because the judge wont hear my story

Being Black, I have no rights, I am no human


BUT BEING BLACK

My opinions are as important as the white boys'

I am not ugly and I'm not a looter!

I am not a murderer did the police accuse me so?

I am not violent! I am not violent!

So why should I be the polices' target?

I should have equal rights same as the white boys'

I am Black, and I am human.

I should voice out threats and I should be heard.

I should not just be tortured

But my opinions don't matter...

I can't change me

so,

STILL I REMAIN BLACK


BY: OLADIMEJI DOYIN

EDITED BY: JESSY DEREMI

THE ANGEL YOU'RE NOT

You must have thought within yourself that you are everybody's own and everybody's desire.
You are just a sad piece without peace hungry for others joy.
You are full of deceit I wonder why I couldn't resist.
You are a disgust with so much gut!

You smile with a hope but with a heart of a slope
You caress and light my distress you then fling me off my fortress
You turn everyone I love against me for your'e that devil I would never love.

I'll never love, never ever love.
I saw you as my Angel. A person who could understand my dilemma but instead you flaunt me in the cinema for everyone to watch.

I wouldn't blame you.
You are not an Angel

I LOVE HER

I want you so bad

I want to tell her much that I want to be with her.
I want to say to her how much I think about her .
I want to show her what I feel for her.

She's so tough and wouldn't sigh me.
She's so confident and that intimidates me.
She's so opinionated my words wont count.

How can I express this depressing emotion?
How can I let her understand my heart wont go on?
How can I be okay without her?

I'm lost in my own fantasy.
I'm drowning in my own tears.
I'm ashamed of myself.

I love how courageous you are
I love how you gaze
I love your self image

And if all these things I love scares me away from you, then I simply love you from afar.

I'M SORRY