BUT THIS IS WHO I AM

 

 A word I have for you darling is never ever give up!

God is going to put that smile in you

Everyone says- nobody knows you better than yourself. But the truth is, even I don’t know me.

I have stared in the mirror because they say the mirror reflects who you are, still I can’t find me

Where in life did I go wrong?

I can’t even voice out my pains and bitterness

I have planned my life from birth but something somewhere is holding me back

I really don’t know what it is but I am tired of where I am.

Help me

I am frustrated

I am angry

I am sad

Worse of, everyone just thinks I know what’s best to do

I actually thought I did

Maybe if someone walks in my shoes and trace my steps they could help lead me to know where I went wrong.

Or in fact just go ahead and right my wrongs

No one knows how terrible I feel

I guess that’s the only thing I know more than anyone

I am just a cool, calm and collected person

Maybe I’m just too cool, calm and collected to a fault

But this is who I am!

Who am I to blame for being me?

Now I am trying to put my passion into other things either right or wrong because I can’t bear all the pain alone up there in my head

I hope I don’t lose who I truly am

So that when the time comes I will understand me better than anyone

And then I’ll be proud to say- no one knows me better than me.

Honestly I am trying to make my loved ones proud of me

I want to be proud of myself too

Come on!

I am trying to make you guys proud. I really am

I am trying my best. The thing is I am just tired of this spot.

And I understand that in life we just have to keep trying

So I am gonna try

I’ll just keep trying

Lets go readers! Lets help our friend

I SEE THE LIGHT

I know the way

But I don't want to take that way

I'm stuck in between two worlds

Non of them value in-between

Isn't there a world of in-between?


I find myself tilting towards the "way out"

I see it clearly

I want to embrace it

But my hands are numb

My legs are stiff

There is no one on  "my path"


I feel strange

Everyone on "this path" feels great but I feel guilt

Something is just different about me

 I need the days of the old when people, I mean prophets could just walk into your house without directions and tell you what God has to say to you. Even the sinners who can't hear from God would at least have the privilege to still hear God say something.
Those act can change people!!

I want to be rescued
I see the light
I need someone to stretch out his hands and pull me out.
If my hands are numb to embrace or my legs stiff to move, Please come lift me up and I'll stand

TALK TO GOD FOR ME

I have made a mistake

God knows this journey I won’t retake

Desperately in search to be happy

Desperately want to be laughing

I thought I will be happy.

With you I’m still trying to be happy

I want to walk away real bad

You are not what I need but you are what I want

It is not going to last forever and I’ve always wanted a forever

Everyone will be disappointed in me

Everyone may turn against me

Even I has turned away from me

Eventually I’ll be left to my own decisions

Let someone make decisions for me

I’ll take them

Or better still take them for me

I just don’t know why I can’t leave even as much as want to

I need God.

Talk to Him for me.

Pain is a Sequence